March 26, 2019

Hahaha thanks


Discoveries in “Drafts” for this site

November 7, 2018

Holy crap what else haven’t I posted that’s sitting in there?

I just found sitting in there since 2015. I think I was supposed to expand on it, but I never did and just kind of…forgot.


Something horrible has happened

November 6, 2018

I’m going to be in Texas for a few days.

Boss has threatened to fire me if I’m not back by Monday. From my father-in-law’s funeral. So there’s that.

Really tired of the shit life is throwing at everyone I know and I lately.


Waaah, woe is me

August 8, 2018

I’ve been feeling an increasing amount of despair lately, and I can’t quite place my finger on it. I am not however going to turn this into a personal feelings and emotions blog. I just hope some people care enough and might want to know what’s going on in my life.

I’ve got half a car working, the due to the all the plans I’m trying to make I’m unable to completely fix it. It’ll eventually break, and I’m prepared for this yet again. I don’t know how I’m going to get back to Texas, or if I’m even going back. I don’t know what I’m doing with myself.

I know this pleases some people in this state that I’m going to be leaving their state, but they aren’t the people that matter. I came up here because of friendship what was supposed to be a very nice group, but due to the actions that unfolded in 2015 and 2016, that all fell apart. Not going to specifics, but it’s all attributable to one person that started it.

I’m keeping my name, but I’m abandoning the western Touhou fandom. It’s changed and not for the better. I remember once when I used to be proud of some people I knew, people that actually did things for the community and actively made it better. A lot of those people have moved on. It’s time I do too.

A lot happened when I visited Japan. It really opened my eyes to what the fandom should have been, and how much we’ve ruined a lot over here. This is not an attack on any one person in particular but we’ve all failed, myself included. I’m just thankful that the eastern fandom has accepted me and has demanded I come back to visit them, which I fully intend to do.

The site’s Not Deadâ„¢, I’m Not Deadâ„¢, I’m not changing my name, and y’all know where to find me. This is just my state of everything right now.


Whoops I broke my site

July 11, 2018

haha rip me

Only lost a video and an angsty post. oh well.