Waaah, woe is me

August 8, 2018

I’ve been feeling an increasing amount of despair lately, and I can’t quite place my finger on it. I am not however going to turn this into a personal feelings and emotions blog. I just hope some people care enough and might want to know what’s going on in my life.

I’ve got half a car working, the due to the all the plans I’m trying to make I’m unable to completely fix it. It’ll eventually break, and I’m prepared for this yet again. I don’t know how I’m going to get back to Texas, or if I’m even going back. I don’t know what I’m doing with myself.

I know this pleases some people in this state that I’m going to be leaving their state, but they aren’t the people that matter. I came up here because of friendship what was supposed to be a very nice group, but due to the actions that unfolded in 2015 and 2016, that all fell apart. Not going to specifics, but it’s all attributable to one person that started it.

I’m keeping my name, but I’m abandoning the western Touhou fandom. It’s changed and not for the better. I remember once when I used to be proud of some people I knew, people that actually did things for the community and actively made it better. A lot of those people have moved on. It’s time I do too.

A lot happened when I visited Japan. It really opened my eyes to what the fandom should have been, and how much we’ve ruined a lot over here. This is not an attack on any one person in particular but we’ve all failed, myself included. I’m just thankful that the eastern fandom has accepted me and has demanded I come back to visit them, which I fully intend to do.

The site’s Not Dead™, I’m Not Dead™, I’m not changing my name, and y’all know where to find me. This is just my state of everything right now.


Whoops I broke my site

July 11, 2018

haha rip me

Only lost a video and an angsty post. oh well.



October 16, 2017

It’s a post.


Headed back to Texas

May 24, 2017

I neglect this too much and need to actually keep up with things.

I’m flying back to Texas to spend time with my lovely better half Twintail Hellcat. We’re also headed up to Oklahoma so I can go play airsoft with TrivYookey and his buddy (whom I don’t know the name of yet from Japan). Beyond that, I need to put my bike together and prepare it to ship back up to Washington.

My Subaru’s dead, but not in the fact it won’t run or got wrecked.  It has succumbed to the northeast rust.  I can’t put it back on the road, it’ll cost more to fix everything than to just find another…2002 Platinum Silver Metallic Forester Model S w/ cold weather package and an engine with less than 80k on it.

I’m also a referee/admin at my local airsoft field now, which happened in a somewhat hilarious way.  We’re making a ton of changes and some of them are fueled by my LV experience and desire to Build Cool Stuff™.

Sakuracon was a bust until after the con, when friends started showing up and I wasn’t all alone in an incomplete Hatate costume.

Also holy crap PLAYERUNKNOWN’s BattleGrounds.



April 23, 2017

I fixed my firewall lol.